Five years ago today my life changed forever

After many long hours of painful struggle, your tiny pink body was handed to me, and you were all MINE! At least I told myself that and I think I even believed it, but as each day passes I am a less sure.

Today you are five years old.

Five.

Sometimes I look at you and feel breathless because you are so grown up and I am not sure what to do!

As we snuggled in bed together tonight I read to you from my patriarchal blessing of the promise that God gave me that if I lived right, in his appointed time you would come to me and that my happiness would be complete.

As I held your five year old body in my arms and watched you fall asleep I thought of my tiny baby girl. I remembered your pinched little face looking up at me.

It was all there – all that spunk and intelligence, good humor, drama, and fun — was packed into that 7 lb body — but I didn’t know you yet. I loved you just as you were but how could I have imagined the joy that you would bring me in time. It was unfathomable and quite frankly, it still is! That there is more of you to know, that we will share more adventures and trials and sorrow and joy.

And today you are five!

As I thought of all this tears came.

As I consider all that you have given to me in the last five years my heart can’t find the words to tell you just how much you mean to me.

Today was a good day…to coin your phrase, we “enjoyed the pink”!

It started with breakfast in bed

as per tradition the breakfast was pink, pink, pink

presents

a birthday surprise

& an adventure

Which lead to

“Black Sky”

your dreams of “pet ownership” fully realized!

more pink (this time frosting)

atop the princess cupcakes for school

and one more cupcake before bed

Happy Birthday, my sweet.

I love you more than I can say!

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P.S. A special thanks to our favorite gentleman callers who stopped by to make the birthday girl feel really loved & gave her gifts even though there was no party. You know who you are and I hope you know that we LOVE you.